E69 Honi: Survive an Identity Shift Without Losing Yourself

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Have you ever been in that strange, uncomfortable space between who you were and who you are becoming — and had no idea how to navigate it?

In this solo episode, Rev. HoniB unpacks one of the most advanced and rarely discussed topics on the embodiment walk — the inner plane of ordained identity shift. Not the concept of identity change. The actual mechanics of what happens on the inside when God Almighty is calling you into your next version and your human self is still holding on to the old one.

This is teaching born from direct experience. And it is going to land for those who have been stuck in exactly this place.

In this episode:

• What an identity shift actually feels like from the inside — the fog, the static, the tug of war
• Why the body resists the new identity even when the mind understands it
• The imposter syndrome that shows up when you can see the vision but cannot yet claim it
• Why you must choose the new identity before it can become — and what happens when you do
• How last week's conflict with Michael became a living example of identity being tested and embodied
• The inner plane — silencing the old voice and raising the volume of the new one
• Why falls are not failures — they are part of the muscle being built
• How the brain creates new chemistry around a new identity when it is genuinely embodied
• The moment the attachment releases — and what that feels like in the body
• Why having a vision holder — a mentor who stands in your new identity with you — accelerates everything
• The client situation that showed Rev. HoniB she was operating from a genuinely new place
• Her birthday is coming — and letting go of organizing it is its own identity stretch 🌹

🌹 If you have been bumping into the same wall trying to become who God Almighty is calling you to be — this episode is the answer you have been looking for.

Transcript

Welcome And The Identity Shift

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Blessings and welcome to the Ascension Alchemist Podcast. It's Rev Hani B wishing you a glorious day, and thank you so much for joining for another amazing episode in this beautiful community that we have that is all about embodying that glorious God Almighty design in our walk of life. And it ain't no joke, is it, to take this walk. So thank you for being here today. Today I want to speak about the inner plane of identity shift, which I believe many of you are really going to um resonate with this conversation because I know without a shadow of doubt, for those of you who have had an identity shift, the area that you've been stuck and you've been trying to figure out an answer is exactly in this place because it's been a journey that I have taken, and I learned how to get unstuck with the assistance of God Almighty, and you would very much enjoy it. So let's go ahead and get into it. Identity shift in our embodiment journey, each of us have gone through a lot of different identity shifts. We have awoken in our ascension path, have gone through many different stages of that, discovering so many ways of releasing the old part of ourselves and allowing the newer part of ourselves to come in, especially like when we first awaken out of the matrix, then we start questioning things and um we kind of go down that rabbit hole, which for sure, by the way, those of you who've taken this journey, of course, at some point you came across David Icke, you came across David Wilcox, and as he transitioned this past week, I did a whole post about him. At some point, we came across these individuals just to try to understand. And we've gone through the Reiki circles and kirtans and sound healing and chakras and dowsers and crystals. I mean, there's like so much we've gone through. And for those of you who are on this particular podcast, you are focused on embodiment because they all serve their purpose, and you're out of that, and you know you're not part of that religious organization anymore, also, but you're not part of totally that spiritual community either. Yet you're looking for greater answers that you're ready, and you know it has to do with that magnificent creator that created all, which I call that presence, God Almighty presence. And through that embodiment, then you're going through another set of identity shifts. So let's speak about this as we go through these identity shifts. First, our older version begins to go into steps of falling apart. So that really starts within our everyday, the way we used to do things, we don't resonate, foods don't resonate, the way, for example, even if we took walks, those don't resonate. The what we would listen to doesn't resonate, the way we used to write emails doesn't resonate, the way we used to work out doesn't resonate, the way we used to, for example, interact with our children or spouse or family members doesn't resonate. So we start going through all these things that first is very clear we're not resonating. Then there's this on the inside, this other part that's resonating, and we want to pursue that. And sometimes there's a tug of war in that for sure. I know for sure many of you have experienced that that tug of war because it's like this isn't part of me, but I'm not quite yet here in that image of that new identity. Sometimes we've gotten the feeling of the new identity, or sometimes we've we've heard it auditory that new identity, or sometimes we've clearly seen the vision of that identity. But the challenge becomes we don't really know whether that's in one month, six months, one year, five years, yet here's this new identity that we have to adopt to. And this is where is the true art that I have actually not come across individuals that really talk about this. So this is why I'm bringing it up because I was looking for answers in this. It's always about identity. Identity, yes, I teach identity as well, but these parts I just don't find people take the time in educating from that personal walk. So I'm gonna share with you from my personal walk, and I know many of you will resonate with this and let me know about it because I do want to hear, I do want to hear your journey. So one of the things that I discovered when there is that vision, for example, when a vision was given to me, then the very first thing would happen was I would begin to lose interest in the way I was doing things. So I would start to retract from the energy that I was given to certain things and tasks, and sometimes it included people, so that I could begin to neutralize it on the inside and begin giving energy towards this new identity that wanted to present itself and come in. And within the space, there is a there's a gap, there's a large gap in that space, in its true formation, to be embodied so it becomes a living presence. And I know some of you know this. That space, there's a there's a space, sometimes this space is like weeks, and you're not you're not in your old, you're not in fooling your new, and you're trying to operate still in both, and it just feels like static, it feels muddy, feels foggy, feels heavy. But then it doesn't go into motion because it's like the old is still operating behind the scene, and this navigation can be very challenging because it can affect your mood, it can affect your thoughts, it can affect your beliefs if you don't understand what's going on. So, within this space, while the old is starting to fall apart and the new is coming in, there are a few things that really take place. One is there has to be that retraction of detachment of the old, and this is the hardest part because most of us, because of the time of energy we've put into certain things, and there's like an investment in it. The idea of not feeding into it, kind of like leaving it or walking away from it, seems like a betrayal or neglect on the inside. However, that's not what's taking place because this door has fulfilled this purpose and it has to be shut. Again, on the inside, in the body, even though on an intellect level we may have we might understand it, the body, because it's used to certain things, it's released certain hormones in the way we've been operating, it doesn't like it. For example, for example, my morning routines have gone through many different changes. Anytime I'm going through identity change, my entire morning changes. And sometimes it's like a foreign place because I've been so used to certain ways, so I would get my dopamine hits, I would experience the serotonin and oxytocin, all of that. And if I if I change things, then I wouldn't receive it that way. So then my physical body would then not feel as wonderful, so then very easily it could interpret that that something is wrong or it's not working, where it's just not used to the new way of being yet, it only knows the older way. So on a brain chemistry on itself, all kinds of things are taking place in there, and that's why physiologically, there is a physiologically biological effect impact on it. Now, what is also really key with this, I'm sure you you can relate to this part. The other part is there is this kind of like impulsive syndrome, so you have seen this other vision of yours, and you know you are that, but your outer reality does not demonstrate that truth because it is demonstrating your older version that you're growing out of. So then it's like, well, I can't quite claim that because I haven't seen its reality yet in form. So then I don't want to be imposter, I don't want to be, I don't want to lead people on, I don't want to say something that I'm not because it's not materialized yet, and that's another big challenge. Yes, on one side it's true, the other side, how can that greater version, that other identity, come in if you are blocking it, saying then this would be imposture? It's not imposture. You have been given the site of your next phase as your new identity or newer identity or the next identity, because we are designed by design to go through different stages for the purpose of that great grand purpose that needs to come in. And each of these stages have been preparation stages, so that especially through these stages of the a lot of the challenges and problems, there have been preparation so that it can give us the ability to handle this next phase. And if you look back in your life where you are today, you will see how much stronger you are, how much more resilient you are, how much more empowered you are because of those phases that you have had to pass. And in order for it to become, you have to pass through tests. So coming back here as an identity, you do have to allow the new identity to come in. And this is very interesting because it wants to start having room to have the possibility for you to move into it, for your human self to move into it. So let me use an example. If you listened to our podcast last week, episode 68, where Michael and I were talking about this experience we had with the trigger and how to, you know, call in God and shut the mouth and don't say anything and allow this other part to come in. What I want to unpack from that conversation, if you have not listened to it, you must listen to that because this part that I'm about to share is going to make a lot of sense to you. This is the wisdom that has been parting upon me because I've been stretching it. So, as I just mentioned, with the identity that is getting ready to unfold in your life, your inner muscle has to be stretched and put into test so that that truth can come into your presence so it gets to be embodied. Each time it's the same exact process. Now, what happens is that, so for example, going back to the last episode that week, what I was experiencing, I chose my identity had been showed. I'm super gracious, I'm so strong in God Almighty. My court can behave in this way, but I will not go into it. I'll be able to stand in that powerful, gracious, merciful stand. And that is an identity that I'm adopting. So at first I had to choose it. So if you are not deciding choosing, it can't become, you have to choose it. So as I chose it, then the opportunity was given. So whenever you go into an identity shift, once you choose it, then it's gonna be tested. So you're gonna go through circumstance, and often it's a circumstance that you don't really like because you're gonna have to be stretched so that the older part of you, the way your older part of you handle the situation, can show up, and then on the inside, you can override it and say no, the identity of this vision of me operates in this way. So I'm gonna have to allow this part to come in, and this is an amazing, I would say a bit of a battle on the inside if you don't know what's happening. This is why I'm sharing it with you. This is the inner plane. So, for example, last week for me, as I saw Michael was triggered, and he was he just begins speaking like kind of like in an irritable, frustrated way, and we've talked about it like Michael, if you're triggered, handle your trigger, don't speak, like there's no reason for this is part of your growth. So, as he began, I knew my responsibility was not to engage, not to interact, and not to not to allow myself to be affected emotionally, mentally, any of that, to remain very gracious, still in a really good place and stand greater with God. So that has been the identity, and I had to allow that in. So my actionable step was that from the awareness I will not interact. So I did remove myself. So on the inside, I had to stretch it more because my old identity was waiting and was in the thoughts and emotions, wanted to go into emotions, feeling feel hurt, get upset, or have my thoughts be like, Why he he doesn't get it, he can't get this right, why is he doing it again? I didn't go there. So, with my ident new identity, I allowed this other version of me step in, and this other version of me was God Almighty will take care of my core. I am so safe in this body, it's beautiful, it has no impact, it doesn't touch, I'm gonna remain loving, grateful. So, what happened in that moment is I had to on the inside silence the voice of the old self on the inside and rise up the volume of this newer self as an identity for it to come in, and it is from here, then that became a new way of operating system, and that also became the way that God Almighty wanted my human self to experience this other greater part that I hadn't accessed before, and I couldn't access this until on the inside I would take the throne and silence my older version. This is so important, and this is where I had gotten stuck so many times, as I am sure many of you have gotten stuck, because it's exactly this navigating this inner plane, exactly this part, because often we're not fully aware of it. The reason why is because we are pulled more into the emotional body and mental body, and we don't know how to take charge and control. This is why I'm breaking it down in this way. This totally needs to be a course and masterclass teaching because this is this is so advanced in in navigation to be able to adopt identity, and why this is so important is as I allowed that version of me, which is part of the vision that I saw, and I allowed it, so then this became a muscle in my body, and it it gave a memory, a new memory into my brain that huh, so this is a memory that it can lean on. So next time I can also build on it, so it becomes stackable, stackable and stackable. So this becomes a very strong, trained embodiment. So therefore, because it's this gracious, amazing quality that is the muscle of God Almighty, then on my human self, I am able to experience the truth of what that actually is in a form. So having said that, like my body on the inside is like, wow, it's in it's it's it's so admired in in the beauty, in its remarkableness, in its magnificent, like wow, this is what grace is like, this is truly grace, because it's not on an intellectual level, it's on an embodiment level. Wow, this is what it's like to actually have mercy because we can say it, but wow, the embodiment is so different because as you experience it in your body, then what you're experiencing is the joy of God Almighty that has given you the ability to experience that presence on the inside, and there's this natural, like wow, amazement, and the flow of all these good feelings, and you can tell that the oxytocin and serotonin and dopamine, all of them are being released on the inside as the newer way, and your mannerisms change, and then the very next thing happens is very quickly the things that you had a hard time letting go and were attached, suddenly the attachments of it release, it's like almost like a latch, it gets released, and it's phenomenal because then there's this openness on the inside for this next phase. And I unpacked a lot in this step by step by step inside this inner plane because it is so phenomenal what happens, yet it ain't easy. You're gonna bump into, you're gonna keep bumping into this, you're gonna keep bumping into this, and I want to share if you keep bumping into this, it keeps showing up, and you find yourself falling, not being able to meet it, and falling short, you're going back to your old self, handling things that way, that too is okay, because you're gonna have probably like 20, 30, 50, maybe 100 falls until you rise up. It's just part of it. But each time you've adopted a little bit more of that muscle, a little bit, it's gotten just a little bit better, a little bit better. I'm sharing this with you because I'm on the other side as a finally like wow, I got this, I experienced. That and I also can tell you from the amount of times that I hadn't. And it again, you need to make that decision in your natural state, like right now. You need to decide. I am choosing my new identity, and I'm committed to that identity, and I'm going to decide to operate from that new identity until it becomes. This is one example of 100 examples is going to come. It's going to be from, for example, the call that comes in that you know surprise and shocks you from, for example, someone that you've really, really cared about. And let's say it's been a client, and you've been just so good to this client, and you've pulled your heart, and then suddenly it's like there's somebody else, and you don't even understand what happened. And you're going to have to allow this part to come in. It could be that, for example, yeah, I mean, all kinds of all kinds of things. Maybe somebody hacked into a bank system, like it happened to me, and how to meet that. So there are all kinds of experiences that will be taking place. You have to understand it's not happening to you, it's happening for you, so that this other part of you can become a truthful reality so that it is embodied as a form, as a living consciousness. And as a consciousness, when you allow this, you're allowing the operating system of the inner Christ to come online, and that's what's so beautiful, that's where it's so radiant, that's where you feel so radiant and glowing on the inside. I hope this really, really made sense, and I know that some of you are really having a challenge around this. I would love to invite you. I want to say this from my heart. The reason why I stand in such clarity on this is because I have gone through each of these steps, done the deep dive in this deep work. Thank goodness with God Almighty showing me the way. And this is why Michael and I taught one year the belief, thought, emotion, self-mastery. And there's a huge portion of identity in there. It was a one-year module that we taught, and it the one yeah, one year dedication, and it is part of our course series on our website, EssentialAchemist.com courses, and it is 14 modules that you go through. It completely reshifts you because you're gonna learn, you're gonna it it's it is inner work. You you won't be able to get to where I am, what I'm speaking about until you do the actual inner work step by step. Because what you're gonna do is you're gonna be able to go through this through the way we've taught it, because it's it's the way we had to go through it and stretch ourselves and be able to adapt and bring in and bring in, and in the specific way we're doing the journaling and the light method we put in there, that's a game changer lifesaver. I'm so glad we adopted the light method, it's our own method because something had to be done to be able to handle this, and I can't speak enough about how good it is. It is$2,222. If you're one of our Essential Alchemy members, you have a code for that, and it it makes a huge difference. You you'll be able to, you will be on the other side of it, and that's why we made it into a self-paced course so you can do it on your own. Um, it's way more cost-effective than trying to hire me, although you can for me to take three months, that will be in like thousands and thousands and thousands to try to hire me to show you, but of course, I'm willing to do that as well. So I wanted to share that with you because that that makes a huge difference. And of course, you can do it on your own. But what happens is people who've gone through things and they've been able to pack it and package it and be able to communicate it, and in something that's taken 10 years, they've been able to bring it together like one year and then put it into like a three months, it's that's how fast you'll be able to go through the process that collapses time, and that's that's literally what you're paying for because you're able to the value of being able to save time and energy is tremendous, so that's on there, and I wanted to share my heart with you on here, and I know I'm gonna go deep into this teaching uh at some point, and it will be so helpful for people because so many of you are struggling in this area. I know that, and some of you are on the other side of it, which is a big blessing, and eventually you will be. And just wanted to bring the awareness that don't be discouraged if it's taking time, don't give up either. It does take time, it's by nature, it's by design, and you have to hold on to that image, that newer version, and not get separated from it. Because when you get separated, then you the whole thing falls apart. So be the vision holder for your own vision and stand in it stronger, and also have people like when you have mentors, like for example, if I'm your mentor, I hold you in that vision, and it makes such a huge difference when somebody's standing in that vision, that agreement with you. Because when we stand in that agreement, we have a stronger presence with each other that will so that will help us to navigate that. So that's what I wanted to really pack today. I feel so grateful. Out of this, one of the things that happened, I had to encounter a couple of things these past few days. One was a client that was just so interesting. Um, with the way she she responded, which was just just so shocking. And I found myself untouched, yet very much caring, yet from this new place, huh? Okay, I'm gonna extend even more greater love and and allow this client be exactly where this client needs to be, because from this place you understand it isn't yours to carry. And I knew it's not mine, it's the process that she's going through that has to give her the opportunity, versus my old self would want to chase it, would want to, my gosh, go away and above and all of that. And I just knew deep truth that I'm standing in pure clarity of the level of labor of love that was expressed, shared, given. So I'm I feel very, very settled in that. And and I can give room for this client to go through the experience that she needs to go through and welcome, welcome what will be taking place next, however way that is. So that's one example. The other example is, for example, my birthday is next week. So next time you'll see my solo uh episode, it will be post my birthday. My birthday is May 3rd, and I'm having my cousins and my for my husband Michael organizing the birthday, and it's so interesting because it is something that I love organizing myself, and to be able to give the wheel totally to them, something that's a very strong feature in me when I'm organizing and the way that I bring a gathering or party together. I just love the way that is. It's a new muscle. Okay, I can trust they're going to do it and it's gonna be wonderful. So I'm not organizing anything for my birthday this year. They're all doing it on, and it's like, okay, I'm gonna let myself come into the celebration, and this is a whole new muscle for me to experience. So when I'll when I when you hear my next solo episode, you're gonna definitely hear about this. It's gonna be good. By the way, I do want to make two comments real quick as well. This coming Wednesday is the next true prosperity living mentorship that Mikel and I lead. It is every month at the end of the month, and what we really wanted to show individuals is to help individuals is to truly have a deep understanding of prosperity, what that abundance is, and how it comes from God Almighty, and how it's a way of life, how it is in many different parts of you. Financial is just one part of it, because there are so many misinformation videos out about make your millions, be wealthy, this, this, this, and they don't understand the depth of what actual prosperity is that comes from God, and I really speak from that place, and it is the it is from that heavenly realm, and we we we go through the teachings, and then I get to mentor you live. It is so valuable. This is something when I do it with a private client, with a private client that's like let's say working with me for three months, they're paying over you know 20 some thousand to thirty some thousand dollars for that. Well, it's$188 in that hour, it's so powerful. And our Essential Alcoin members have their member price, so really welcome you to sign up, and you can start even the Wednesday, and then you can sign up for the last three months so you can really catch up and see how they work together. We'll be having it every month, and it is of tremendous life-changing experience as a transformation to come into it, and we made it accessible so that you public can go ahead and create that shift. It's an invitation, but you're gonna have to go through it. So that's coming up this Wednesday, 3. And if you can't be there live, you'll be able to you still sign up and you'll be able to get their uh recorded replays. And Michael on Thursday has his men's circle. He's gonna have his solo podcast episode coming up this week, so you're gonna hear that. And remember, the following week on Friday, May 8th, you mothers! Woohoo! You mothers are going to get an amazing bonus episode coming out. I can't tell you. It's five women, five voices, one divine conversation. It is so powerful that recording, and I'm so excited for you to experience it. And I want to leave you with this. This week, I was on two different podcast interviews about my NDE, and it was one with Angela Goodman, and the other one was with Lori. It was incredible this week with these two podcasts, and and I was being I was bearing witness to the way God Almighty wants me to speak about the NDE and a different level of message being in. So I can't wait for you all to hear it as it comes out. You're gonna be in for a treat. So that's all for this episode today. I trust you received this in your heart. And let me know if you struggled with what I shared, because I am speaking at a different level, yet I know it reached you in somewhere, especially if you've been trying to navigate that part, because it may have been like the answer you're looking for, because I just don't hear people really talking about it in the personal development space, at least. And also in the from the lens of Christianity, in allowing God Almighty, and and that struggle on the inside, you don't hear that either. So I'm trusting this is gonna land for many of you, and for those of you that don't, I also understand at some point you'll come into it for sure. For sure. So have a beautiful, blessed day. So much love to all of you. Thank you so much for listening. Thank you so much for being. Thank you. I want to put this prayer out because I haven't done a prayer at the end for a while. Thank you, God Almighty, for blessing this community, blessing the hearts of each soul that was on this call that got to hear the words of wisdom that you have pardoned upon me that they're receiving now in their heart, and they can apply it into their life and better their life and rise up and allow that truth that you are reaching them so their greatness can come through, can come through in your holy name, in your Christ's name. Amen, amen, and amen. May that serve you so much. Love you all, love you all. Have a beautiful, gorgeous, fabulous week, and thank you so much. Please, please, please, please, please leave a comment. Like, what was your takeaway on Spotify, on Apple? I would love to see those. And and if this was a value, you know somebody's going through identity shift. The greatest thing you can do is share this with another because you will bless yourself, you bless me, you bless another person. We bring goodness onto earth through sharing, and I really appreciate it because I put my time and energy and love here. It's all free to help others, and I can't do it all on my own. It requires those of you that you receive this and you're blessed by it to be able to share it with others. So thank you so much, and have a gorgeous week ahead.